Growing up as one of the few black kids in a very white suburb had some dire consequences on my love life and love interests from middle school throughout high school. I didn't feel ugly, but I didn't feel beautiful, and I knew that I wasn't what any of the boys had in mind as a potential date. The boys at my schools liked their girls white (but horribly tan), blonde, and stupid. I am not any of those things. I had boyfriends, don't get me wrong. But it just wasn't like it is NOW, and I don't know if it is solely my location that I have to thank/blame for the change I have experienced since moving to Seattle from the suburbs. I am asked out fairly often. Every woman is, I know. But by men I RESPECT. That is a rare and beautiful thing, internet. Not that I have to tell you.
It could be that I am now in contact with many more people who are much more likeminded than those 30 miles south. It could be that I have an incredibly supportive boyfriend who tells me every day that I am beautiful. It could be that I am finally happy, challenged, and stimulated on a daily basis. I feel that I am thriving here, and I suspect that I secrete happiness from my pores.
Either way, I feel totally beautiful for the first time in my life. I am confident. I love myself. I love the people I choose to surround myself with. I accept those that I do not. It just feels good.
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